A Song About Why I Suck

Intro

C Em Am G
C                             Em
Before if I fucked up anything I only hurt me,
Am                      G                         C                 Em                    Am
I never hurt anyone but now there are real people my actions affect and I cannot stand it,
G
I cannot handle it.
C                               Em                    Am
I smoke too much weed and watch too much TV, I always run out of cigarettes,
  G
I lie about everything.
C                               Em                Am            G
This used to be me but now it's feeling stale and friendly.
      F         C      G             F             C                 G
And I hate what I've become but I've never been so proud of what I've achieved.
C                                    Em
And I steal from my friends, this is how I will tell them,
    Am                           G
But sometimes I'm broke and when I am I I'll do anything.
C                                Em
But it's no excuse cause none of us have a thing,
Am                       G
But you are all honest I self-aggrandise my own bullshit.
C                           Em
Borrow money for food and I spend it on booze,
Am                              G
Eat bread from the dumpster and use anything I can use,
C                         Em
To block out my thoughts, quiet my brain,
Am                                  G
I still jump when the pain comes.
      F         C      G             F             C                  G
And I hate what I've become but I've never been so proud of what I've achieved.
C                             Em
And I just want my parents to think that I'm clever,
Am                           G                         C              Em
And excuse my lifestyle but my lifestyle has become an excuse.
Am
Formed out of habit.
C                             Em                   Am
And I just want my friends to know that I'll never fuck them around again,
      G
Cause people are everything.
F                C             G
And I sing these songs to sink up with the stragglers,
F                C             G
And I sing these songs because nothing else matters,
F                C            G
And I sing these songs out of fury and fear,
F                C           G
And I sing these songs cause without them,
F         C        G
I wouldn't be here,
        C
With you.