Now Only

F Em C

              F                         C
I remember looking around a hospital waiting room
                                            F              C
Full of people all absorbed in their own personal catastrophes
                                                F              C
All reading books like Being Mortal, all with a look in their eyes
                                    G
And I remember still feeling like, "No, no one can understand"
"No, my devastation is unique"

                C
But people get cancer and die
                    G
People get hit by trucks and die
             F
People just living their lives
Get erased for no reason
          Em                                G
With the rest of us watching from the side
                C
And some people have to survive
                       G
And find a way to feel lucky to still be alive
   F
To sleep through the night

Em      G             F
I wrote down all the details of how my house fell apart
F
How the person I loved got killed by a bad disease
Out of nowhere for no reason and me living in the blast zone
         Am
With our daughter and etcetera
I made these songs
        C
And the next thing I knew I was standing in the dirt
Under the desert sky at night outside Phoenix
     Am
At a music festival that had paid to fly me in
To play these death songs to a bunch of young people on drugs
C
Standing in the dust next to an idling bus
With Skrillex inside and the sound of subwoofers in the distance
Am
I had stayed up til three
Am
Talking to Weyes Blood and Father John Misty
About songwriting in the backstage bungalows
       C
Eating fruit and jumping on the bed like lost children
Exploding across the earth in a self-indulgent all-consuming
Am
Wreck of ideas that blot out the stars
To be still alive felt so absurd

           C
People get cancer and die
                  G
People get hit by trucks and die
            F
People just living their lives get erased for no reason
         Em                          G
With the rest of us averting our eyes

C G F

Em                                                        C
When I was leaning on Skrillex's tour bus waiting for the hotel shuttle in the middle of the night
  Am
I barely knew who I was
         Em
I looked up and saw Orion wielding a club and a shield
And there you were again:
G
Majestic dead wife
      Am
As my grief becomes calcified, frozen in stories
And in these songs I keep singing, numbing it down
    G
The unsingable real memories of you
And the feral eruptions of sobbing
      F     Em       C
These waves hit less frequently
     F        Em            C
They thin and then they are gone
        F            Em         C
You are gone and then your echo is gone
    F        Em        C
And then the crying is gone
                          C
And what is left but this merchandise?

F Em C

F               Em              F  Em C
This is what my life feels like now
           F                   Em
Like I got abruptly dropped off by the side of the road
       C
In the middle of a long horrible ride
     F                    Em                C                   F
In a hot van that was too full of confident chattering dudes
    G                  C        F Em C
And the sound of tires receding
       G                     F Em
Taking in the night air I say
          C
"Now only"

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